Breastfeeding.

I know what you're thinking. Another post about freakin' breastfeeding. GAH! Well I feel the same way. Only I am living it. So around here Mr J had been pulling off the breast and screaming until I give him a bottle. I though *uh-oh* the beginning of the end for us. Well I am not a quitter in anything I do. So I upped the ante. I just wouldnt feel good about myself if I didnt give it everything I have. So I started taking a large dose of fenugreek which resulted in leg cramps from lowered serum potassium levels. Discontinued that. I tried beer at night for a few days with *maybe* a slight difference although not much. I need to keep that up. I tried a hospital grade pump which only resulted in very sore nipples and no difference in output. I am now trying Domperidone and pumping twice after the J-man goes to bed to try and shorten the night-time gap between feedings. I am also considering buying a supplemental nursing system. This would allow me to get him the formula he *needs* to thrive while keeping him at the breast which will hopefully stimulate me to produce more for him. This was suggested to me when he was tiny, but I was just so very overwhelmed with adjusting to life with this screaming, wiggly, tiny thing that I couldnt even think about it. So here we are at almost 4 months old and I am pondering ways to save our nursing relationship.

Many people are going to think I am insane. I get that. But for someone who believed and desired to breastfeed for a year or longer 4 months just makes me feel like a quitter. And I am just not ready to give up that bonding that only nursing can bring. Knowing that I am providing his nutrition, and giving him the best possible food. And so it continues. For now things are still the same, we supplement with each feeding using a bottle. I have managed to nurse him exclusively for the first 1 or 2 feedings and right before bed.